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lol long time no blog

well holdiays have been a total bludge. i tried to do work so many times, but never ended up going to it..
i played cs, watch family guy.. went to franks new house at one stage..
and fuk! no work done

and so yea school starts, first week, same shit ahaha
then.. i started thinking about really weird shit..
we got the UAC guide.. then uni started to pop into my head..
after watching all those american movies with people in college, or even going to unsw myself, for a numerous amount of times to do "study" courses there, it seems like such an awesome place..
but ok, ill be happy, well more than happy if i make it.., but right now, i have a feeling i wont make it.. at the rate of procrastination/not doingw ork and all that shit.. its goodbye HSC/UAI/UNI. i dont konw what im gonna think when that letter or text comes in, telling you the UAI or wateva.. [Sorry Victor, you have not made it into the following Uni: - - - - ]
like.. everyone is so smooth, they get their 80's or 90's in their subjects, have a lil stress, go on with their courses, go to school, study, play games, all balanced. get their uai, go into uni, finish uni, GRADUATE, find a fucken good job, ARGH!
but yea, i thoguht about that, if i dont make it into uni.. ill lose all my friends?, like.. i still want to be with most of them, or atleast a few of them, so we can still hang out or wateva during uni, and make friends at uni, .. they seem like such nice people..
i dont want to end up in TAFE.. bunch of hsc failers, well no offence, but its just so different to those people at uni.
uni is a place i dream of going..
walking up those classy steps, into the lecture halls, with professers teaching nd all that..
but.... argh..
i guess its my own fault for not trying hard enoguh..
right now i just feel like..
id ont know...... my head is spinning
i jsut want this HSC trials shit over and done with, then the hsc.
i want to escape........
oh and on top of that, mr conner walks up to me.. hey victor, you know your phyisics ranking?, ur 81st/83 int he year

you gotta try harder.
so i nod, and he goes on with the lesson

and ye.. then i agreed to do accompanyment next week for jordan and pete, like playing sax and doing bass guitar for THEIR hsc. and i havent even got mine under way yet. theres this compulsary "enesemble" piece.
and so i find one, put together in about 2 and a half weeks, which was meant to be atleast a years work.

so yea..

parents a bit worried about me too, but oh well..
i hope i do come out as some sucess someway.. dont care wat.. music/busness/I.T..
not someone who lives at home with his parents, till 30 and have a shitty airport job.

argh... its so depressing

on a lighter side, this is what me and frank did in the holdiays
jay chou - simple love [cover]