gahh

well this last week,
after my trials got most of my stuff back
happy / unhappy
but yea, relaxed as hell

saturdaynight was awesome
bbq, drinks, watching ppl getting drunk
(bruce, neon, richrd!!LOL) fuked up sydney boys, pissed everywhere, then ran for our lives, when we realised there was actully ppl in the hall doing a seminar or something
and so yea, apparenty i was quite off too, so i went to RICE at like 9 (10 minutes before it finished)
sat there and concentrated on the speech nd all that, just to try and sober up

didnt work,
caught a taxi to central station, and forgot to pay the taxi driver, got told by that lebonese driver, and yea, preh scared..
cops then came up to me, asked if i was alright, and i was like, yea all good.. they were just like take care, and wlaked away..
but got home, slept, till 7 the enxt morning for tutoring!!
biggest headache
damnit

secondly, music night was on last night
went well , quite enjoyable , and yea
had a few awkward sentences when talking on stage
i guess im not that type of person to talk on front of everyone with a mic.

amyway,

kool week, but sad too

this is really karma..
Ms haitidis' son.. had a seizure, and now has a braintumor or something.., and yea, mr melvin told us that he has low chance of survival, according to experts..
this is so sad.. i cant imagine what shes going through.. its .. argh!!
its something that makes you wonder.. why this happens..
please get well soon and hope everything goes well.

then secondly, this reminds me of 1 litre of tears, but this time im in it..

my cousin/relative, that im preh tight with, recently became weak and energyless.., and how skinny as hell..
they called up sunday morning, and she has contracted some brain disease, and its slowly growing.. recently seeing this, shes having problems walking now, and yea, can't do anything,..

she just got married and now 30 something..
argh, this is so depressing..
she has two children too, like ones 6 and the others like 8..

why does this fucken shit happen..

i never imagined what it'd be like to ever have that happen to someone close to me..
like.. whats gonna happen, when time goes by..
in 20 years time, what will everything be like?
and she was so normal before, we playd ball, ran around, it was all so happy,
and what now?,
shes only 30
theres so much ahead, children to grow up with
i hope she really lasts for much longer, and be stronger for much longer.

so much to live for

this world sucks..

-v