hectic.. not

no really. everything is fucked up right now.
recap of the two *hectic* weeks
last tuesdsay: went to kogarah library with desmond, and wtf, see sean, willy tt, mitchell, benny nd korlab. studied like a tiny bit?.. the whole session was a joke, andt he fking 4uniters were laughing at me doing 2 unit. douchebag tot he max!. like okay, i forgot to put the calculator in degree mode instead of radians, and i got a strange answer like 1 degree, on a triangle that looks normal. and they wer like rofl.
had tutoring that day aswell, so got back to hurstii and went..
last wednesday: stayed at home trying to study maths.. oh well.
last thursday: well, made a lie to my parents, and went to the city, and met with 'event organisers'.. after seeing how that facebook shit turned out. it was one of those board room thingies, and a big round table, with leathery chairs all around it, and we discussed various issues. nd agree to do it at darling harbour with liek fireworks nd shit. and wow, they offered a job position after hsc, for marketing/databasing.
okay all happy. the worst shit comes later, will be said.
friday: went to school with desmond, did alot of music work, and foold around a bit with music. then after went dougies, and library.., and played the comptuer? rofl.., and then sean and his friends were there.. we competed in a maths paper. funny.
weekend: basically stayed at home and did jack?, tried study maths. but fully got drifted away.
monday: maths exam. had a headache,badmood,hayfever,box of tissues on the table. i oculdnt concentrate. i was sitting there feeling liek shit, and tried writing and doing quesitons. i ended up being not bothered. fuck, and 3 hours just went by. really felt like shit. after that, got some food and studied music.., which then came up, and argh!, that was fucked up.. it was like crazily wtf. it was all analyse this analyse that, listen to this, and analyse that. prolly got like 30% literally, which then scales my compostion and performance down. this was the most important exam. fuck!.
jordan drove me home later that day.., very fucking depressed.
tuesday: stayed home all day and supposedly "studying". oh well
wednesday: went to work with parents, helped out with some important things.. then came back home.. didnt do any work again. i got tired and went to sleep, and now im up at 2:15 AM. proly go sleep again.
now the fucked up about today was when i called the event organisers. they offered me the best shit witht he bonfire. the event grew from like 150 people to 8100 people, and yes, they were gonna make it a huge event for nsw. now they call me up saying they didnt agree to anything, didnt sign anything, they dont want the bonfire event under their name, and the event isnt 'feasible'. i got so pissed at that guy. their company is full of bullshit. argh. now im stuck here with nothing. like waht the fuck? they call me up going, hey the agent of sneaky sound system said yes, then again, we can do for $30.00 per person, and fed me with all this good bullshit. now they pull out.
i sent out invites to all 8000 people, and now what?, im fucked. im gonna be the biggest bullshitartist alive. i should just run away from australia..,
i got two interviews tomorrow, one with a smh journalist, and another with a UTS student, whos doing first year journalism who wants an insight to this whole thing. what can i say.. this hwole thing was a publicity stunt, and wont hppen. im in deep shit right now. the event organisers said if i mention their company in any manner not appropriate, i will get sued.
FUCK.
my whole days been killed.. this whole thing is fucked up.
fucked up.
stupidest shit alive, wtf am igonna do
this is bullshit
its depressing, but okay.
the thing now is im gonna get a lawyer and declare this bonfire intellectual property. no fucking asshole, especially the company like that, take advantage of this and make money off it next year.
im in the shittest position ever, my mind is spinning.
fuck fuck fuck.

i don't know what im gonna do
i wont be doing anything after hsc except sulk.
fucking bullshit.. everything

physics.. hahh.real funny
20%, just like all the other tests
my uai is gone already

out.